Frustration

Why is it so hard to go to church alone?

I had plans to go to church today. Plans that had been set for a week. Plans that were confirmed yesterday. But, this morning I called my church buddy and found that she had been up waaay late with a mutual friend consoling and comforting her through a hard time. I understood. She had to cancel. I'm not upset with my friend at all.

When we hung up, I cried. I can't stand going to church by myself. There is a church I've been really curious about less than 2 miles from my apartment. I could've walked out the door and been there in less than five minutes. No big deal, right? Not for this girl... I cried because I knew I was too scared, too uncomfortable to go alone.

I really want to be able to go. With or without someone else. It's just so much nicer when I have someone else there.

Listening

My mother called yesterday, asking simply for me to pray for an unspoken prayer request. I could tell whatever it was pressed heavily on her heart, so I am asking you, Unknown Reader, to do the same. Every time her name comes to mind, or I see her picture I ask HIM:

"Father God,

Hear my Mama's prayer. Put her anxious heart at ease. Wrap her in your unfailing grace, peace and mercy so that she will know and trust that YOU have control of everything. I can't be there to hug, or help, or talk. But YOU can, YOU will, and I am so thankful we both know that. Thank You, Father for hearing our prayers, and answering them in YOUR perfect time.

Amen."

On a side note, after spending too many Sundays away from HIS house I am hearing him call me back "home." Pray that "my stubborn heart" will listen. Pray that I will find the perfect place to nuture this weary heart.